it's the 1st time and the last time i'm come to the birthday party ! ╥_╥

happy birthday FARADHINAAAA ! ✿◠‿◠

i've never realized that we are a bestfriend in this year ! you know , when we was in junior high school , we just a ordinary student , and we never want to knew about each other , just knew our name  it's enoughfor us ..
but , this year , we are in the same class ! wohoooo !
i remember when we laughing together , cheating together ( it's our hobby ) , eating 'bakso' at BCL with Navy and Bello ...
wow !  ◕‿◕✿
once again , Happy Birthday !
PS : just like i wrote  on the messages inside the gift  : make your parents proud of you ! :]

it's started this morning ..
just like another sunday morning , i must go to bicycling ( if i'm not do that , i must be ready when my mommy angried at me )
so , who is accompany me ? ( him ? ) hhaha no waaaaaaay ! he never want it ..
pitiful , huh ? yeaaah ╯_╰

okay , do you want to know who is accompany me ? she is ZAHRA :]
she is my bestfriend too , we're not in the same school ..
we know each other when we was in junior high school , she is a friend of my friend ( i have a friend named Devi , and zahra is Devi's bestfriend ) , understood ? ^^v

we bicycling on darmo street until my house ..
it's not tiring at all , it's really fun ! aaaah i love sunday morning  ◑‿◐


oh wait , it almost 11.00 AM ! i must get ready to attend Faradhina's birthday party ! because someone is waiting me at school .. ( not him ! )

ah, there is Iga ..
me  : come on Ga , before they realized that we are here and not come for the practice ! ( we on the same  extracurricular , paskib )
Iga  : wait ! where is the other ? they not coming ?
me  : we must wait them ?
Iga  : yeah , nobody knew where is Fara's house ..
me  : oh damn , it's hot here ..
then i look beside me ..
what ! he is here ! yeah , HE is HERE !
he's come ! oh yeaaaaaaaah i love this day ! ( and i almost hate this day ┌∩┐(◣_◢)┌∩┐ )

and now , we arrived at fara's house ..
oh my , it's not such like i was thinking before ..
i think that there was a ordinary party , but ..
she is wearing a beautiful dress , with make up on her face ..

i was sat down in front of him , we still joke around ..
then , i realized something ..
there was a remaining place beside him ..
how about i .. let's go ! haha :D

i'm tried to get closer with him by grab my some friend to sat down too beside me and him , but ..
me  : ga , how about we sat down beside 'him' ?
( hey hey , she never know about my deepest feeling on him )
Iga  : what ? no .. how about youself ? you want it ? go there ..

then , lalalalalaaaaa ◡‿◡✿
i sat beside him ! we really closed , you can watch it , our knee is .. ( huahaha you already know it ! )
i'm not realized that in front of me is .. birthday cake with 17th candles on the cake ..
if you know when i trying to sat down , my face is getting red , and getting more red when he say ..
my other friend : look at them ! ( me and him ) is that funny if you imagined that the birthday cake is the wedding anniversary of them ? ( because we sat behind the cake , and there is 17th candles on the cake )
him                  :  oh my God , it's our 17th wedding anniversary ( and look at me like i'm really his wife )
me                   : ( i think someone realized that my face is getting more red ) oh guys , stop it ! ≧ω≦
haha oh my God , i hope no one know and look at my face ..

but , there's something happened , and i never realized before ..
cake , Fara's parents , and ..
God , why i'm not thinking about this before i come here ? WHY !

now , Fara is in front of her cake .. and beside her is .. her parents .
it's okay , it's okay ( in my mind )..
but , her daddy start to talking about his daughter ...
he want that fara is more diligent , smart , make the parents proud of her ..
and there was something tried to fall from my eyes ..
i'm crying ..
when i look at Fara's father , when he say something for his daughter , when he touch Fara's head , when his happy face is captured by the photographer after see his daughter blow the candles ..
and now , i'm feel it ..
i'm envy , jealous , missing someone ..

DADDY :(
DADDY , YOU LOOK AT THAT ? LOOK AT HER ! SHE REALLY HAPPY ! IT IS HER BIRTHDAY PARTY .. AND HIS FATHER PRAY SOMETHING FOR HIS DAUGHTER ..
DAD , I REALLY MISS YOU ..
I WANT YOU , I NEED YOU ..
WHO IS SAID SOMETHING FOR MY BIRTHDAY ..
WHO ?
I JUST WANT YOU , DADDY :(

i know that my other friend look at me at that time , i was crying , almost crying ..
i don't care who is still joke around beside me , who is tried to joking with me ..

i look at him , he still joke around ..
he wanna make me laughing , but he don't realized that i'm crying ..
then he stopped to joke around ..

i pinch his knee and said ..
me  : i miss my father .. ( still tried to wipe my tears .. it's still fall from my eyes ! )
him : what ?
me  : i miss my father ...
him : where is he ?
me  : ( he didn't know it ? ) :(
him : where is he ?
        oh yeah , everytime when i come to your house , i never met your father..
        so , where is he ?
me   : (still quiet)
him  : ( look at my eyes and said ) he passed away ?
me   : ( turn around and something more painful is coming ... )
when i turn around , i look at Fara ..
she give her 1st cake for her parents ..
she give it to her father and gave him a mouthful of the cake ..
me   : ( look at him with more tears is trying to fall down from my eyes and pointed to fara and her father )
         look at that ..   ╥_╥
after that , i can't covered my eyes again .. the tears is fall down ..
my other friend realized it and said : hey Pin , what's the matter ? ( with confused face )
i tried to covered my eyes , the tears is trying to get out ..
i still look at his face .. he still tried to make me laughing ( but it just 5% make me felt better , and he know it , then he said )
him   : be patient , okay ?
i just look at him , his eyes ..  ╥_╥
God , please let me home , i can't stand here anymore ...  ╥_╥

then , something really funny is happened ..
because i'm wearing a t-shirt , i can't wipe my eyes clearly ..
i tried to get the tissue but , in front of me is the busy people with the birthday cake ..
and he is trying to helped ..

then , i look something ununusual behind him ..
his shirt !
i take his shirt on the floor , then i used it as tissue ..
he doesn't know it , so i still wearing it to wipe my tears ..
then he turn around and still laughing ..
he look at me and shocked , but he not take his shirt from me but he just watching it and laughing ..
i know what his eyes meaning when he look at me : you really stupid , hah ? why you're wearing my shirt ?

after all , it almost the beautiful day ..
but definitely it's bad day ever !